Just let it happen…
I have a history of change… whenever I make a change, it’s usually a huge and drastic one… comprised of several at one time. I get so tense and nervous that I can’t sleep, eat, or get anything done. The thoughts and nerves take over my life. It’s ridiculous that it takes over…
So, the Catalyst Conference is this upcoming week and I am incredibly bummed I can’t go. This conference rOcKed my world last year! And it also sends me down memory lane and it’s hard to believe it was only a year ago that I was a part of The Vine… it seems like it was so much longer. My job was to make church fun for kids and to create an environment so they could grow closer to Jesus. Seriously?!
That’s all I could think about when I was listening to the amazing leaders speak and worshipping with the Vine team and Steve Fee Band… And wow, how things can change in a year’s time. Do you ever have those moments where you wish you could go back to a certain time in your life and… I dunno, just go back and enjoy it and really appreciate it… not take it for granted… Wow- and when we left the conference the last day, I saw the biggest rainbow I’ve ever seen. I couldn’t find the end of it. I seriously drove around trying to find where it ended.
I just can’t figure out how to measure things… in terms of if one thing will be better than the current thing. What if you make the wrong decision? I know God will use it all. After all, He is in control, not me. Why is it so hard to remember that sometimes? Oh yeah, because I’m a control freak and a perfectionist.
(<- me right now) Lately, I have been having to remind myself constantly that God is handling this life of mine and He is ultimately in control. A friend of mine emailed me last week and said she knows that God has something big in store for me and will use me wherever I am. Wow- great reminder, I needed that. He will provide, I just have to wait and expect amazing things. A key part is that I need to stop expecting things from people; especially people who don’t live beyond themselves. I need to expect God to show up and use the situation so that I can learn and grow closer to Him. In the midst of a situation, it’s hard to see the end… but if there’s a theme in my life since I began my walk with Jesus, it’s that whatever I’m expecting or praying for, God goes beyond that. WAY beyond that. He is AWE-mazing. He dreams bigger than I can dream for myself. So, I’m letting go and letting God. Letting go and letting God.
I can’t wait to see what’s next… I have a feeling I’m going to be blown away! No wait, I KNOW I’m going to be blown away!!! I’m EXPECTING to be!
So, the Catalyst Conference is this upcoming week and I am incredibly bummed I can’t go. This conference rOcKed my world last year! And it also sends me down memory lane and it’s hard to believe it was only a year ago that I was a part of The Vine… it seems like it was so much longer. My job was to make church fun for kids and to create an environment so they could grow closer to Jesus. Seriously?!
That’s all I could think about when I was listening to the amazing leaders speak and worshipping with the Vine team and Steve Fee Band… And wow, how things can change in a year’s time. Do you ever have those moments where you wish you could go back to a certain time in your life and… I dunno, just go back and enjoy it and really appreciate it… not take it for granted… Wow- and when we left the conference the last day, I saw the biggest rainbow I’ve ever seen. I couldn’t find the end of it. I seriously drove around trying to find where it ended.I just can’t figure out how to measure things… in terms of if one thing will be better than the current thing. What if you make the wrong decision? I know God will use it all. After all, He is in control, not me. Why is it so hard to remember that sometimes? Oh yeah, because I’m a control freak and a perfectionist.
(<- me right now) Lately, I have been having to remind myself constantly that God is handling this life of mine and He is ultimately in control. A friend of mine emailed me last week and said she knows that God has something big in store for me and will use me wherever I am. Wow- great reminder, I needed that. He will provide, I just have to wait and expect amazing things. A key part is that I need to stop expecting things from people; especially people who don’t live beyond themselves. I need to expect God to show up and use the situation so that I can learn and grow closer to Him. In the midst of a situation, it’s hard to see the end… but if there’s a theme in my life since I began my walk with Jesus, it’s that whatever I’m expecting or praying for, God goes beyond that. WAY beyond that. He is AWE-mazing. He dreams bigger than I can dream for myself. So, I’m letting go and letting God. Letting go and letting God. I can’t wait to see what’s next… I have a feeling I’m going to be blown away! No wait, I KNOW I’m going to be blown away!!! I’m EXPECTING to be!
Are you expecting AWE-mazing things from God??
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