Are you mad at Him?
I think that one of the reasons I wasn’t worried about being unemployed was that I thought God had already lined up the perfect job for me. Working at a church and working for kids ministry. I’ve just realized that it’s who He created me to be- I can relate to kids, I can talk to kids, and wow, I can love some kids!
I thought my interview went well but I knew the reality that I wasn’t the only one hoping and praying for the job. Well, I found out yesterday that I didn’t get it- wasn’t anything about the interview but I wasn’t the best fit. Talk about upset… I was upset that I didn’t get it, upset that I had no idea what I was going to do, and upset that I was really jobless now. I cried for a little while and then my mom and I had to go somewhere so I got myself together. While I was driving, my mom asked me something that was already creeping into my mind… “Are you going to be mad at God?” Ouch. I couldn’t answer.
When things don’t go our way, don’t we usually get mad and upset? But over the years, I’ve learned that it gets you no where. I used to be that person that one little thing would affect everything in my life- it was awful. So over time I’ve learned that I can’t let it, but it usually took a huge effort. Then I met Jesus. And somehow all of those things weren’t so big anymore and I started seeing the bigger picture… that God has a plan bigger than what I’m experiencing in that moment. So, I let myself feel it and asked God to give me peace that it wasn’t where He wants me at this time and for some direction as to where He really wants me. He already answered the first part of that prayer… wow, He was quick!
I woke up today and am nowhere near the upset that I felt yesterday. I’m looking forward to whatever it is that God has planned. I already have some ideas and am doing my part to keep moving forward. I’m not worried but rather excited about it all. It’s as though I’m waiting on a big suprise and I have no idea what it could be! I just know that I can rely on God and know that He is doing what’s best for me… so how could I be mad about that?? Thanks God, for my mother’s words that reminded me of who You are and in turn, dramatically changed the way I handled it all.
I thought my interview went well but I knew the reality that I wasn’t the only one hoping and praying for the job. Well, I found out yesterday that I didn’t get it- wasn’t anything about the interview but I wasn’t the best fit. Talk about upset… I was upset that I didn’t get it, upset that I had no idea what I was going to do, and upset that I was really jobless now. I cried for a little while and then my mom and I had to go somewhere so I got myself together. While I was driving, my mom asked me something that was already creeping into my mind… “Are you going to be mad at God?” Ouch. I couldn’t answer.
When things don’t go our way, don’t we usually get mad and upset? But over the years, I’ve learned that it gets you no where. I used to be that person that one little thing would affect everything in my life- it was awful. So over time I’ve learned that I can’t let it, but it usually took a huge effort. Then I met Jesus. And somehow all of those things weren’t so big anymore and I started seeing the bigger picture… that God has a plan bigger than what I’m experiencing in that moment. So, I let myself feel it and asked God to give me peace that it wasn’t where He wants me at this time and for some direction as to where He really wants me. He already answered the first part of that prayer… wow, He was quick!
I woke up today and am nowhere near the upset that I felt yesterday. I’m looking forward to whatever it is that God has planned. I already have some ideas and am doing my part to keep moving forward. I’m not worried but rather excited about it all. It’s as though I’m waiting on a big suprise and I have no idea what it could be! I just know that I can rely on God and know that He is doing what’s best for me… so how could I be mad about that?? Thanks God, for my mother’s words that reminded me of who You are and in turn, dramatically changed the way I handled it all.
Are you mad at God about something? Do you know that He has your best interest at heart and has something better planned for you than what you had planned for yourself?
